Anti-psalm 27

When life has felt chaotic or overwhelming, I’ve found stability for my heart in Psalm 27. But what if the words written there were not my foundation - where would that leave me? Instead of supported, I’d be abandoned; instead of embraced, I’d be alone. Everything opposite of the Psalmist’s experience would be my reality:

The LORD is not my light or my salvation;

I have everyone to fear.

The LORD is not the stronghold of my life;

I have every reason to be afraid.

When evildoers assail me to eat up my flesh, my adversaries and foes,

It is I who stumble and fall.

When an army encamp against me, my heart fears;

When war rises up against me, I have no confidence.

I have not asked anything of the LORD, 

or tried to get close to Him for even one day of my life,

Because I don’t see beauty in Him or a reason to focus on Him.

He doesn’t shelter me in the day of trouble;

He doesn’t let me into his tent, but rather

He leaves me vulnerable.

My enemies exalt over me, and I have no reason for joy;

I have no song to sing.

He doesn’t hear a word from me, because I’m not crying out to Him.

He hasn’t asked me to seek Him, so I don’t.

He hides his face from me and turns me away in anger.

He hasn’t helped. He’s cast me off and forsaken me.

When my family rejects me, so does God.

I have nothing to learn from Him,

Alone on my crooked path, surrounded by enemies,

Given over to the will of liars and violent people.

I don’t believe in the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

Don’t wait for Him; 

Be weak, and let your heart wilt.

Don’t wait for the LORD.

I hope you’ll check out Psalm 27 and let the light be even more precious to you because of its contrast to the darkness.